Is this worth saving, or am I only fooling myself?

[Dash]

I haven't heard from the WAW since I left her on Saturday. I'm getting antsy. I emailed her on Monday morning to let her know I would be there on Saturday to see my son. It's hard only seeing him once a week and most of that time is spent in the car or at her parents' place, I don't feel like I'm really spending any time with him at all.

How do you keep the thoughts of them and the OM out of your mind? Or that she's maybe even cheating on him with someone else? I know the stop sign technique but I have to admit it doesn't seem to help me much.

It's been nearly a month now, when does it get better? I keep reading books and forums and stuff and for a while it seems better then those thoughts come creeping in.

I don't want to seem needy to her, and I don't want to seem desperate but why can't a WAS see the pain they cause? I know, it's the fog. When does that go away if ever?

I need to learn patience and I need to GAL, it just seems so hard to do.

Dash