Surrendering to hope

[istherehope]

Hmm,

I am just very confused as to why H hasn't mentioned the fact that I simply left a note saying I was at my friend's, but not when I would be home or anything. I know I can't read his mind, but it's freaking me out a bit I have to admit. I have completely surrendered here in every way, and I am not sure whether I have put myself in a healthy or unhealthy place. I will have to go to the house this weekend to get more things, if nothing else. He hasn't asked me when I would be there, or suggested that I come on a specific day/time...

Then there's this outlet store thing, and this was our plan last weekend too which we postponed due to H's travel schedule, so I am not sure whether I should assume it's a set plan this time or not. I don't want to ask him about anything, but if I don't hear from him by Friday afternoon on this, at the very least I am going to have to mention coming by to get my things...

I really hope that this new strategy pays off. I am trying to give him what he wants in terms of space, give myself space to avoid his incessant R talks, and show him that I don't need to be in control. That said if he doesn't actually reach out about plans together, then I will have to go back to looking needy and contacting him...

Here's hoping that he does reach out first...

ITH