Again, I think you made a good decision. You sound good.....struggling as we all are....but, good. ((((h4h)))))
WHICH decision was a good one?
I feel good. Been feeling good. Just so up and down concerning my wife. In dealing with her. Being dark with her feels so unnatural.
Is it really the right thing when trying to win her back? I can understand doing it for MY benefit. I just see the flip side as helping her to build the life she wants away from me.
She doesn't have to deal with me. She's probably happy as hell that I'm being dark with her. It's what she wants. Less guilt for her to deal with.
Talking to my friend was VERY inspiring. Actually knowing someone that made it even from the point of her filing on him and him counter filing. He gave me very uplifing words and also warned me on the temptations. Being strong in my sitch. If he could do it, I could do it. I even used Jeff's analogy of feeling like the kicked dog. He turned it right around on me and told me that I'm an intelligent, thinking, caring man who is able to decide what hurts me and doesn't hurt me and that I know what I want.
I will definately be picking his brain.
I just hope I can keep being strong.
Me 47, WW 38 SS18, D15, D10
Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08
"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."
