SC, I'm sure everyone knew it was a joke. No worries.
In my life there have been certain things I fought against. I put up an incredible resistance, often internally. But in the end they simply proved to be my own windmills.... It's interesting that life continues to offer me that lesson. Perhaps it's because I find it so hard to learn.
I'm working on better accepting the things I can't control. I had made progress, but apparently not enough. But today I feel much better. Something clicked in the past few days. I found a little peace. At least for now