I'm not liking men much right now, present company on this board and a few friends excluded.
Okay okay.. I don't like the guy I married right now very much. I will get over that "I've been slimed" feeling on those occasions I find out too much about what's going on in his life. YUCK!
Sometimes I think of just having a pleasant time being with a man.. simple things. Sometimes I get that whomp of lust that gets my mind going in another direction. But being in a relationship is so strange a thought.. I can't even come up with a Jacuzzi guy fantasy.
Gypsy, sorry to hear of your frustrations. It is a change in lifestyle because 2 residences must now be supported with no immediate increase in funding. Just know that you can rebuild and it will take time.
I hate to break the facts if you have not read, but statistically wise, guys have fared much better financially after a divorce than women.
I would think that your longer marriage means that your H needs to pay for a much longer time of spousal support.
Hey Gypsy, I know what you mean about not liking men much. I used to love women...all shapes and sizes. I always found something nice about a woman. Now, I am not even looking. Kind of strange for me...let's hope this does not last too long. It's like kalni said above we have lost our appetite.... I am sure a woman with your charisma and sense of humour will attract someone equally desireable.
I auditioned with the vocal coach my daughter goes to. He's probably the best in the area. He accepted me.. commented positively on the range I have and my pitch.. and asked me repeated if I'd had any vocal training. My answer was no, no, no.
I always wanted to be able to sing but was too afraid, too cheap, and too insecure to ever try. Opportunity found now.
I've always enjoyed drawing and art but have never taken any formal lessons. I used to joke that I'd know I was healthy if I ever took lessons. Opportunity found now.
I've always wanted to be in plays from the time I was a child. As one of five kids born in 7.5 years my mom didn't have the time or perhaps I didn't voice it enough. In high school and college though I always wanted to try, my fear of not making it, not being good enough always won over my interest. Opportunity found now.
I've gone most of my life coming up with lots of reasons why I shouldn't do one thing or another. I had to be home with the kids, it cost too much money, why did it matter, there wasn't time. Opportunity found now.
My husband left me long ago. Once he physically left he was gone. His involvement with her has been going on for quite a while based on his actions. It's my life now. Opportunity found now.
You guys think so highly of me which is something I will embrace. It's time to let go of the layers of defenses I've had for years.. excess weight being one of them. In my twenties I felt so uncomfortable when I got too much male attention.. so I'd pack on a few pounds to feel safer. Over the years food slowly replaced the affection I'd seek with my spouse. I lived on crumbs. I'm done.
The only hurt I feel is what I choose to inflict on myself. Time for beddy bye...
