Jeff...this thread slipped by me. I could kick myslef for it. You are only a year or so out of this my friend. Healing takes longer than a year for many people. There is no way to speed up the process.

You, my friend, are far better at DB'ing and staying reality based than I, but, even I can tell you that you must stop the self-blame and victimization.

DonH....took quite some time before he got back into the cockpit and took off again. It's not easy but something we must do as men. Jeff...you know the classic line...the journey of a lifetime starts with the first footstep. Take that step...put yourself out there. Remember N.U.T.S.? Men take risks.

Risk something....try something new and, most of call, just pick up the bottles if they are in the house and THROW THEM OUT. Medically, alcohol is a DEPRESSANT.

Jeff...you ARE a good man. Heal. There is no rush, but, start the wound healing. Get out there.
FIB

Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11)
Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t
Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10
Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;