the mlc files--I want to believe

[hoosiermama]

Yes, that's the thing with D, she's trying to protect us. I don't usually know how she really feels because she doesn't want to burden me. She hasn't said that, of course, but I know that's how she responds. I imagine she's also protecting H, altho there might be more of an "earning his love" aspect there since he's the one who left. That's why I try not to show a lot of sadness unless I absolutely can't help it--and there have been those times. Yeah, I do think it's appropriate to let your kids know you're sad, but there's that fine line I try not to cross that would make her feel she has to take care of me. This is all just so hard.

The thing is, I kinda gave his family a little more credit than this--most of them, anyway. I'm sure they don't know the whole story, and who knows what they've been told, but then they should also know there are two sides to each story and even a brief note to express concern for my well-being and Clare's would have made all the difference in the world to me. At this point, in the very unlikely situation that we ever end up back together, that extended family relationship is ruptured. I'm just so tired of being punished for something that isn't my fault. How much more do I have to lose??