Most days I'm pretty positive, but there are those odd ones when I feel really down. Part of today was one of those times. I was just waiting for my S21 to fetch me, and I had just discovered that I had missed an English quiz because of the last seizure, plus I didn't get marks back from my rewrite of an essay I had handed in for Lib. Studies, so wondered if the prof. had given me an extension after all, or if the rewrite was the same mark or worse than the original. Ugh! By the time S21 arrived, I was in tears, wondering if I wasn't wasting my time at uni. I feel like all I do is spend my time in the hospital/doctors, or at uni or trying to catch up with work I've missed because all I do is spend time in the hospital or with the docs. I feel dizzy sometimes.
On the other hand, I really love having something to look forward to away from the cycle of hospitals and doctors. So, as my H says, "do what you can, enjoy it best you can, and if you fail, at least you had fun." I can't fault his advice. I tend to be a perfectionist where schoolwork is concerned and it irks me to be behind, but I will just have to live with this until all is under control. AAAAGGGGHHH!!!!
S21 gave me a brilliant bear hug earlier and that always makes me feel good. What would i so without my precious children? Can't imagine.
If ya got this far, thanks. It's good to just get it off my chest, as it were.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
