Yeah right now I have plans to meet a friend for dinner... and you are all so right.. gosh focus on the positive!!! I never thought I was negative until thrown into this horrible sitch and I seem to dwell in my sadness somedays.... it is also b/c I will be traveling Tuesday night and Wednesday night for business so I'll be with them Thursday night and Friday day...
So I will be out just will be weird to come home to them not here and wake up with them not here... but I need to think positive thoughts ..... Amy I hope it gets easier as time moves on...
While reading tonight to my D she said out of the blue " I'm going to dream about Daddy coming home to live with us" took me off guard... I teared up and said let's say a prayer for him.
I decided to text him what she said in a nice way...
he text back and said "thanks for letting me know... makes me very sad... I will try to explain to her tomorrow.. You know I don't want them to ever feel I don't love them"
I said " she knows you love her but doesn't understand why you left... you didn't just leave me.. I just wish the girls had meant enough to you for you to "try" before you left us" ...
then I texted and said I'm not trying to make you feel worse... coming from the heart not anger.. Good night...
He text back said " Nice... I know... have a good night as well"
I felt he needs to hear what I hear every now and then and I hear it everyday...
more later... thanks again for support
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
