There was an unplanned passing today at lunchtime. I was getting a sandwich and walking past a store to get back to work, where I saw 'A' and 'M' walking into that store. I didn't want to see her so I tilted my head, pretended I was in my own world, and continued walking. I txt 'A' to tell him that I saw him, but I would have stopped, but I am having issues with 'M'. He said that he didn't even see me. I told him to have a good day and left it there.
I guess that is not 'acting as if' or 'doing a 180'. I just didn't want to be rude to 'A', but I didn't care about being rude to her. Strange how little worlds are in little worlds, and those unplanned, crazy moments control my world. My stomach turns, my blood boils, my head spins, and I can't think. It over powered me.
What I do know is 'A' responded right away, and she is not my friend any longer. It was simple, and we had a chance to say 'hi'. I am happy that he responded. I wanted to call him up and tell him I miss him, I want to be with him, and come home . . . you bum . . . but I didn't.
I wonder how and when we will end up together again.
