Nice of you to say Nut. Truly making a daily effort to focus on the positive is just a 2-week old thing for me. I got the idea from someone here (I forget who). So far it feels good.
Today's list of good stuff:
Progress. We're settling the divorce. I can look at it either as an end or a step in the path. I don't know where we will end up, but I am looking forward to settling this, the cessation of hostilities. It doesn't hurt that i will have unlimited access to my kids, and we'll have normal communications for parenting purposes. I no longer feel like a leper.
Stuff I am looking forward to having my belongings again - my tools, my sports equipment.
Trials - I spoke with my sister, telling her that we were nearing settlement. Despite my description, it is still a hard thing. Sis took the opportunity to tell me how hard I was to live with. How nice! Just what i was hoping for. no, actually, I was hurt by what she said. But I was calm. I rang off, thought about what she said. There was some truth to it. A couple hours later I called her back to express that, and also tell her how I felt about the things she said. It felt good to have a normal conversation about very difficult emotions.
wise counselors - they are everywhere. Shelter in the storm.
