well today he went and got his keys to his apt and said he'll take the girls there Friday night... he almost seems excited.. I wish I could see the guilt in his face... I don't anymore unless he lets us down like Saturday because he was hung over he seemed bothered but other than that he is trying to be more accountable so I think he actually doesn't feel guilt or doesnt show it..
I hope I'm strong this Friday night and Saturday - sleeping in our house without anyone hear will be weird and so very sad ... it will be very weird to wake up Saturday morning without my kids in our home... brings tears to my eyes ... don't know how I'm going to manage to play tennis .... It makes me sick to my stomach.... every hurdle is going to be hard.. I know this is the right thing and he needs to take them - for him - but I'm going to suffer.. I hate this!!!
I need to pray pray pray this week about this... I can hardly think about it..
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
