Signs to say WAW woke up?

[dday101798]

Well, commincation alas. Had to call W after receiving a call from son's school that he told his teacher he didn't have his field trip form or money because "I said he couldn't go". Man what a mess.

W is still in her mood and continues to lay me the blame and justification for her A solely on me. She sparked that conversation BTW. I don't get it I really don't. I understand she needs to take something to comfort for it but why, why are the one's left behind to blame?

Didn't get loud with her at all. Those days are over, those issues are not the focus of currnet life.

I started the practice of writing the "undelivered letter". Felt a bit better afterward but am confused by the fact that it serves no other purpose.

The biggest point in it, again, if even after all this, we can look each other dead in the eyes and have a complete conversation in mere seconds and connect to each other sole heartedly, that is forever undying unconditional love.

I hope something I said may tap her on the shoulder and she starts to look around and realize the wrong she is commiting. Otherwise, if she goes route of the way she wants (yet says Im' the one that wants D, okay go figure) and she files for D, reality is not going to be kind to her, not one bit.

I can't count how many friends she has turned her back on after they ask her what it is she really thinks she's doing. She feels that they all turned their back on her.

Uggh, what a mess, what a bloody mess.

-dday