agree I have been done and through with this M on a few occassions, not sure I'm 100% back either, but let some time pass as our feelings will change... they always do and then decide.. I know for me it is the future fears and my kids will be the only thing that could possibly get me through and make me take my H back... right now I don't even like him and some days Hate him..... but I hate what he is doing to me and my babies that keeps me focused...
I am struggling and in the mist of writing him an email... I feel I need to know when the affair started.. the truth.. when he told me he said it had only been 4-6 weeks and I find that hard to believe he'd leave us for a 6 week relationship... but will I get the answer I want out of him??? probably not... or not the whole truth. I know it is still R talk but I'm not sure it would make a difference right now.. he seems so done. He went and got his apartment keys today and seems so OK with it... and he has decided he'll take the girls there Friday night... if he brings OW around I'm not kidding I will pull every curly hair off her head if she touches my kids... :-)
I re-read parts of DB and I really need to focus on the last resort technique and doing my own 180's .... I need to figure out the shock factor ... what would shock him... If I started dating that would do it but I can't arrange that right now... I would go on a date if I was asked I tell you that.. my friend said to leave a condom lying around or in the trash when he stays here... I laughed so hard... not a bad idea huh!!!
I hate this.... so hard...
Me: 38/H:40 M:7yrs TG: 10yrs 2Girls: 4yr & 7 month old Bomb 8/22/08 OW/EA/PA 8/23/08 with 25yr old Moved out 9/22/08
