Still hate to see all the affairs all over the place!!!
Took D8 to her psych today. H insisted on going, said he had it in his calendar. He showed up one minute before the appt. and D8 ignored him and was interacting with me even after I said your Daddy's here she said I know and went back to interacting with me. H spent the few minutes before and after the apt. on his crackberry, I mean blackberry. He did leave it alone the 5 minutes we were in to see the psych. She asked how D8's been doing and H jumps in right away fine, just fine. At least she is with me! I said well actually she does continue to have meltdowns as she always has. Things like when the computer freezes, or her favorite dress is in the washer (gotta wash it sometimes!) and things like that. She's had many meltdowns when he was at the house and all through her life, I was like wth? And then he admitted she is with me a lot more (yeah like 95% of her awake hours) and that could be it, and he has seen her meltdown over the computer a few times. I remembered of course on my way home from the appt. he had told me she had a major meltdown at his place when she lost one of her Pokemon games and couldn't find it (the day S14 locked and broke the bathroom door) and he was all stressed over that. I'm thinking he wants to look like good parent rather than be honest like I am for D8's sake. Guessing he will want to use her psych as a defense witness for him, and feels like he has to lie or something to do that.
If I do have any love for him, it's covered by such a thick layer of disgust right now, I can't feel it anymore. He's such a _________ (fill in the blank with a really juicy word please).!
The one consolation over this is that I do think when the kids are older they will look back and remember who was the stable parent always there for them. He can't fool them and as they get older I would guess they will realize more and more. I do think he's not the same person he was the first 16 or 17 years of the marriage! Karen
