HTTE, The tough road...Facing the big D

[HopefultotheEnd]

I told her, and she was still mad at "me". Made for a Wierd Halloween but I didn't let it spoil anything. I delayed my plans a bit to talk to W and we "made up" sorta. After we talked about it a bit she asked me to rub her back. This may have set us back a bit. She did sleep in the guest room, LOL. But I am ok. I'm not sure that what I want from her still exists.

This was one of the first times that I was ok that she was mad at me. I didn't want that, and for a second I had doubts but in the end it would not make me feel good to have her use the condo and it would make my family feel awkward so I'm glad we are now all clear. Even if she now threatens me with taking the kids to go stay with her OM that live there. And even if she threatens me with an ugly divorce. She is not as stable as she appears.

I'm going to back off and enjoy my life. She matters less and less in my day to day life. But I was getting closer to her. Wierd. I'm not so sure that was a good thing. Perhaps I'm just a fool in love...