Today I am again a bubbling mess, thinking I need to be in Hs face so he does not forget me. Then i think that is not doing what is right for me. I have to think that if he forgets me , I was always going to be forgotten.
I will do no contact for as long as possible, gaining strength within and finding some little happiness .
I am a strong , intelligent and if I say so myself good looking woman. This has hit me harder than anything else in my life. Everyone is shocked again at my meltdown. It is so out of character or is this my character, that I have kept buried. Vulnerable and soft and loving.
This is hard.
Friend have said that this as also out of character for H. They are surprised.
