light (albeit dim) at the end of the tunnel

[Dash]

it doesn't matter what YOU did to ruin the relationship ("your part"), it doesn't warrant infidelity.

I agree wholeheartedly. It doesn't warrant anything of the sort. I said I "helped push her" in that direction, and I believe I did because I became withdrawn from her emotionally and physically. There were plenty of times when she did reach out to me and I withdrew even more. These aren't things she's said, because she won't talk about it much at all, but when I look back honestly over the past couple of years, I know where I made my mistakes. That doesn't mean to say that I think she was perfect. We both have issues.

Someone on one of these boards, I wish I could recall who, said something to the effect that a lot of guys that have a WAW weren't happy with the marriage either and often thought of getting out. I find myself to be one of those people and I don't think I hid that from my W at all.

I'm not saying my WAW was or is a saint. I'm only recognizing my behavior during our relationship.

But I feel like I'm hijacking someone else's thread here.