talked to my lawyer regarding limiting her showing up at my house whenever she wants. I need to legally file for separation and have that boundary listed. The simpler approach is to change the lock. I can do it for no reason. My daughters key is not working and the door lock is having issues. It will be changed Wednesday night. After her visual as to no clothes or belongings in my room, that door will have its lock changed.
I have alos decided to take an occassional trip to seesome friends without revealing the whereabouts to my D. She playas the game with her mother, but I would just as soon have it be the truth, she doesn't know where I am.
This all is really getting into the "game" and I feel I am moving forward quite well. Not fast, but well. Her birthday is the 19th of this month. I will remind my kids to call her. I will not send her a birthday greeting of any kind. She sent me one, I will not do the same.
I am getting hardened to her, to the point that I feel hurt. I feel myself getting very distant from her. dreams and thoughts of her are few and far between. If not for her showing up at my house or someone telling me about her, I have no real thoughts on her. Is it bad that I have stihled myself so much that I feel this way? I understand the methodology of what I am doing, but the reality of it is now, I don't want to be alone, emotionally? The baby steps she is taking, forward, are real. they are small and nothing to build my hopes on, but they are there.
