Signs to say WAW woke up?

[dday101798]

Thanks Alli.

Unfortunately, things have taken what I feel a final turn for the worse.

When my W has spoken of any plans of what and how things may or may not work, she has always referred to a "deadline" of sorts in February of next year. She would consistantly say that it's because that's when her work load will die down from the holidays.

Ahh, enter the much anticipated "master plan" I have always wanted to know. I believe I have mentioned that our house in her father's name as he could get a better interest rate then we could (so I was told). Thus, I've been in the ackward sitation during this seperation of staying in it as she has no means to pay for it and has been "staying at her father's".

Well, my brother in law stopped by Friday night and revealed the plan. He and his W are preagnant and due in April. He finally came by and hung out a bit and finally informed everyone. Then out of nowhere, he says it will be so much nicer when THEY move from his house which is 90 miles away to take over "ours". And that the W and OM were going to move into "his" house when OM's lease is up at the end of January.

So yeah, I've been played like a dang fool. All this sweet talking and nice conversation, although some may have had some validity to them, just a ploy to keep me in the house until this while little plan can come to frutition. The mortgage was due Saturday of which I had to ride out to the bank first thing in the morning to withdrawl as FIL wants cash only. I've always had a funny feeling about that. And as of this morning, has not picked it up in fears of me confronting him about it. Don't see why, I don't care, take the damn house, it's nothing but memories anyway, he know this, I'd rather move out.

So, after the night that W and I were "together" I had blow off all the new friends I met as part of GAL-ing as she was jealous of them and one imparticular, being female, and yes we had a little thing going on. Well, since I now know I was being played, I made plans to reunite with the new friends and have fun again as it's good for me. My room-mate and I worked everything out and had a great weekend, despite the fact the when W found out I'd have company by for the weekend, she exploded!

Now wait just second here, she's calling me from OM's house whom she's living with for 4 months now, IN FRONT OF OUR KIDS, and has been with either in a PA or EA for who knows how long, but has the right to tell me who I will and I will not hang out with? WTF is that? She lies and says she wants to come home so badly and yet has long term plans for her and OM getting their "own" place together? WTF!!!!

We're supposed to be back on the non speaking term, yet W called me this morning. I didn't want to ruin my day with the potential for a fight first thing and declined the call. W left no message, nor sent one, so I don't know what's going on with that.

So either the jealousy of her knowing now that I've gone back to hanging out with new people and actually being happy instead of miserable eats away at her so badly and she wants in, or she files as she has so threatened yet again.

I'll still be here for her, but, I'm not going to get involved with ANY of her talk of the fate of OUR R when she is a part THEIRS. Heh, it's break time, wonder if she'll call?