Don't know what to do- Please help

[limbo]

Thank you both


I have journaled from time to time, last time I did it just made me really angry..so I have stopped for awhile.
To be honest I am scared with the list there will be more cons, I know that's horrible to say..but its a worry!
I just feel really numb for the most part, not alot of feeling, I am sure you know what I am talking about. I worry that they just aren't truly ever going to come back.
I know it takes time, and I am giving it that, but it just feels like there is so much more to work through this time.