WAW has been home for 19 weeks now

[GH31]

Bloody Hell this is tough,

W gets wind that I am planning to move out and we have the best Sunday ever.

Passionate sex in the morning followed by 2 hours of indoor climbing together, then shopping, coffee together and chatting, then a movie.

Basically a great Sydney day spent together. When I compare where we are now with 5-6 months ago there has been much progress.

But... contact with OM persists and W is having a tremendously difficult time with not seeing him when he visits Sydney in a few weeks. She says she "owes him" and wants to "repay her debt" and not "ruin his holiday".

This ongoing contact bothers me terribly and I have told her as much. I have asked her to cancel the visit and she has agreed (kinda) and said the situation is "ridiculous really...". She also said "If I want to be with you then doing things with OM would be the wrong thing to do" and "the reasons for me leaving him haven't gone away" and "I felt lost without you GH31 when we were apart. We have a special way about us - it's really unique and irreplacable".

I also said "what would it be like if I were having a chat with your father and brother and they ask me "where is W?". Then I would say "well you never guess what...she's out showing her ex-boyfriend/boyfriend around Sydney". She said something to the effect of "well that wouldn't do" or "I didn't think of that...".

For heaven's sake.

Then today I asked her to "take care of business" and she was annoyed at my "nagging" as she was leaving for work. She wanted to cancel lunch and sent me an SMS saying something about me "nagging" her. Anyway, I emailed her the following email:

Hello my dear W,

Thank you for your SMS.

In truth I don't want to even think about this subject, let alone talk about it with you. Neither you nor I have any fun discussing it.

I would simply be grateful if you would do what you said you would do in the first place (weeks ago) and remove the cause ... so that it never has to occupy thought or conversation again.

As for lunch, it will go ahead at 1pm and we can enjoy it and each other. There is a time and place to talk about less palatable subjects and lunch isn't it.

GH31

and she replied with:

Hmmmm, see you then...

I AM SO CONLICTED AND CONFUSED!!! What the heck am I supposed to do with this girl? It's true about sex making a man feel close to his woman and with women it's the other way around.

W and I spend hours and hours in each other's company every week. Obviously it's having an effect and she's very close to me, but when I want to go dark because of this continued vacillation (she still won't say ILY or wear her wedding ring) I am thrown again. We have been sleeping together much more and she has been returning caresses recently but she still has all of her things in the spare room and says "we're not officially back together until I move everything back into this big room"

I have been much more vocal about not being disrespected. If she says or does things that I find objectionable then I let her know - not in a horrid way, but I insist on being treated the way she herself would want to be treated.

What a mixed up little girl. Especially since she had pictures of OM in her iPod together with pictures of just me on my own and our wedding pictures. Good God ... whatever next???

This is just so damn tough.