Surrendering to hope

[istherehope]

Hi Sep,

Thanks for this. I sent you a message on FB that might help explain a few things...

I am doing better now, not wildly happy better, but calmer. I've taken 2 days off of work, and am going to try to recharge during this time.

I'm really not blaming myself anymore for anything other than Saturday night, because I did behave badly then. I am not sure what the next few weeks are going to look like, but at least for these next couple of days, I am going dark on H. I will not ignore him if he calls or texts, but I am staying invisible on IM, and am not going to send any emails unless an emergency comes up. I'm not doing this to be vengeful or anything, but I just think that a couple of days of more space will be a good thing.

I am not going to IC now. I will consider it depending on how I feel over the next 6 weeks, but right now I actually think I might be feeling enough at peace that I won't need it. I think I just need to focus on more outward things, like my job and exercise again for the moment.

ITH