Councilor booked for tomorrow night. Sounded Ok on the phone. I have to be clear on what i want from her. I think it is to help me 'let go'. i don't say that in a negative way , but in a way that will be healthy for this family and if God is smiling then perhaps i will be a better person, for H to see. A real person not a fake.
I will print your list.
I still feel that at least for the next few weeks , that I dont want contact. I seem to be someone who cant do things in small doses. It is like if I said i am giving up icecream then I would have to give it all up. I could not so much as have a lick, as I would want the whole dish.
