Can't I Take Away All This Pain

[GoingForward]

I am mad at myself for wanting to believe.

I'm quite familiar with that feeling.

Love makes you do stupid and desperate things.

You said it!

It makes you blind to the truth, even when others point it out.

BTDT.

It makes you able to believe the most outrageous and outlandish things, just so you can get up in the morning and sleep at night.

Right again!

Corey, I hope you realize that in NO WAY am I ever telling you that you are wrong. There is no right or wrong here when it comes to your emotions. You are free to feel whatever you are feeling - you have that right as we all do. I'm just trying to help you see what I see from the outside looking in - the things that are NOT helping your sitch. On both sides - H's as well as yours.

He needs to SEE what the true consequences of his actions are.

Unfortunately what he will SEE is still a while off, but it builds everyday.

So why allow it to build? Why let it get to that point? Why not take charge of YOUR LIFE - right now? Why keep putting your life, your well-being on hold while waiting and waiting for H to hopefully come around? Do you think he's doing that for you? He's not, and you know it. He's out at the card room with the stupid a$$ Troll, blowing money together...and calling YOU to help bail him out.

Why not show him now what he is going to lose? Before your feelings about the M and towards him harden any further?

Do you HONESTLY think things are going to be any different once that baby is born? Whether he is the father or not?

I know these are hard questions, and the emotions are a real b*tch, and I might be coming off that way myself , but please, Corey - Wake Up. Stop letting your H and all his BS drag you to the ground. It starts with not believing everything H wants you to believe, and not believing what your heart wants you to believe either.

(((((((Corey)))))))