Thanks for the responses I think I get the message(LOL). Here is an update and a question. Last night I went to the wedding and although it was pretty tough I had a good time. She even slipped and called me honey and baby when no one was around. The minister was awesome and I was hoping that she listened to the message about commitment and that there will be good days and bad days etc. I don't think she listened. I was my usual helpful self being of assistance with the wedding party and the like. She said that she appreciated all my help (she was the maid of honor. She basically avoided me dancing only once she kept leaving the hall with her phone , I am guessing she was texting or talking the OM. I still maintained a happy exterior. I tried not to be pushy but I did compliment her and she didn't know how to take it. I guess I slipped a bit.
In the morning I got up and she said good morning and said I could sit on her bed and lounge, she then said I could get under the covers so we could lounge we both fell asleep. When we got up she got strange and said she thought it would be ok as friends but changed her mind and wanted me to leave.
The rest of the day was up and down she was mostly down and I left her alone. She then left for the afternoon and was having dinner at a "friends" it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure our where she was going. I can't even think about it and am almost at the end of my rope!
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June 08 I don't want to be married it's not you it's me
