Loneliness

[rop]

Damn I feel so lonely.
I never ever felt so lonely - I can't believe it I reached this point on loneliness.

[c.db_mod]

ROP,

I am sorry you are feeling down. You have the strength within to make it through this.

Take CARE of yourself....I am thinking and praying for you

[Puppy Dog Tails]

Hi ROP,

I'm sorry you're still having such a hard time. Can you circle back and bring us up to speed on what's been happening with you? It's been a long while since you've posted.

What are you doing to GAL??

Puppy

[hopeful4her]

Hey, Brother rop!

I just got back from a hunting trip and thought I'd check on things here. What's been going on? Why are you at this point?

Keep in touch. I haven't been posting as much as I used to. Trying to not be as glued to the computer as I used to. I think it helps me in getting my life back.

[c.db_mod]

ROP-

Just wanted to check in. We are all here!! I am sending positive thoughts your way

(((ROP)))

cdbmod

[rop]

thank you, thank you, thank you,
I have been away from home for work, for more then a month, and I miss my family terribly, specially my kids. I would have missed it anyway, but in this situation it is very hard. I talk to them every night, but I feel they are so far away.....
I am actually meeting many interesting people, but I don't feel satisfactory this "bachelor" life, it is not the life I want to live. I don't even feel I want another relation - and I have no idea if I could ever be able to forgive my W.
I only know I miss my kids -
thank you guys for being so nice -

my ex wife is still with OM - sometime when we talk she has some nostalgia of our old family - but she is not doing anything to change the situation. I am the worst DB in the world, I get upset very easily and we end up fighting very often.
Sometime she act jealous, but this it what it is, an act.

people that are close to me say that if I am going back with her she is going to make me miserable for the rest of my life, and they are probably right.

I am just sorry I had kids with her, if it wasn't for them it would be easy to forget about her.

[hopeful4her]

Hey bro, I can't begin to imagine what that feels like, not seeing your kids for so long.

I count my blessings with mine. I get them every other week. In my sitch, I feel blessed to have that.

When they are NOT with me for that week....wow! The loneliness for them is incredible.

Hang in there. You've come this far. Your anger has always gotten the best of you. Some day, you might be able to let it go. Must be hard. The anger is just a sign that you still have feelings for her. Now if you could only let that anger out in some other way. Might help.

As far as the worst DBer...I can think of a few others, myself and Jeff included, that would be right up there.

Still praying for ya', dude.

[Trying2live]

I was just reading your thread. Is GAL'ing helping you at all? I took up something fun like salsa lessons as a GAL. I really didn't want to but the book says to GAL so I signed up and it really helped. It was something fun and just for me where I could get my mind off of the A.

By the way have you ever heard of the book Surviving An Affair by Willard Harley? It really has ALOT of information on what goes through the mind of these walkaway spouses. I have recommended it in addition to the DR books, its a great compliment to it and really helped to understand the addiction aspect in Affairs too.

[hopeful4her]

rop, I forgot to ask.

Is the divorce final?

[c.db_mod]

ROP,

I am happy to hear you are meeting interesting people, that is a great GAL!!!! The people on the boards are simply awesome!! It is amazing to me the kindness each person here shows towards one another.

I am sorry you so far away from your children, that has to be tough...please know we are all here thinking of you and sending positive thoughts your way

Again, You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

cdbmod