1.) Entering another second week of darkness 2.) I was reading about the Butterfly Effect last night a.) It was encouraging re-reading Michele's books b.) I am hoping that continuing this dark program will eventually work 3.) I still need constant reinforcement and encouragement because I feel that there is nothing wrong with what I am doing 4.) I am looking forward to creating more goals as soon as this one is established 5.) I am happy that 'M' is no longer in my life, but I wonder what words are getting back to 'A' 6.) My life seems small, but my work schedule is chaotic
Today's Thots:
1.) I spoke to a friend about going to a show in Boston 2.) We also spoke about going to NYC to visit my niece 3.) Things are becoming easier, but I don't feel any differently 4.) I know that people around me expect me to not have any hope and give up waiting 5.) Most people around me do not have hope because they see that 'A' is not available for me 6.) I wonder if this is the only thing I can do for 'A' to notice me 7.) Nothing else has worked: patience, kindness, thoughtfulness, flexibility, availability 8.) Going dark has only helped once. It was a brief moment. 9.) I have not seen anything consistent yet 10.) I wonder where I am on his list 11.) What did I do differently then that I'm not doing now? 12.) What was happening when we had our happy/happiest times?
