Chiki... I have had a variety of what I feel are authentic experiences with God. Unexplainable things. Moments where I felt that God was present. Nearby. I have felt led and directed at different times.
I feel I need to describe and express these experiences with my own language. I feel alergic to chruch vernacular and king james english. I have heard both so over-used and mis-used and abused to the point where I really struggle with it.
I get from the Bible that God is true, even if every man is a liar. So I think what I am saying is that I am looking for a fresh and genuine experience with God. One that is not filtered by the jargon and culture that feels empty and superficial to me.
Not wishing to blame or judge anyone. I just dont feel a connection with a lot of lingo or established culture. Nor do I feel God requires any specific lingo. Perhaps this is why new churches emerge from time to time.
So I would say, ya, I do know what entering his presence with praise means. I am just sucking at conformity at this stage of my life. So maybe I know it by a different description.
The Bible as I read it does not require conformity. Most gospel music as I have experienced is... well... lets just say it doesnt appeal to me either. I respect what they are trying to do yet what I have experienced seems all part of the big western culture church machine.
Yet Jesus himself I believe was a cultural revolutionary. Which I believe was one of the reasons he was resisted.
