For the Guy with Kids and a WW Diciotto

[hopeful4her]

Hey peeps. Not having a lot of drama tends to make for boring posts. No drama good!

lis, not sure what YOU thinks is working for me, 'cause I sure as hell don't know. I did catch up on you just now, I just didn't post. Your getting good support. Now you can see how tempting it is to just freakin' walk yourself. Trying to figure out WHY we love these jack asses! I know I can't figure it out.

I know my kids love me to death. I hurts to see little ones hurting. I have to remember that D11 feels the same way too. She is making more friends and I'm proud of her for it.

Suga, I haven't read your stuff yet, but I will. Sometimes its ok to be a bitch, or for me, being a dick. Were only human. I think trying to stay away from the wife is helping me. Hope your doing the same.




After I got off work early yesterday, I came home and fell asleep. I was wanting to do so much around the house, go drive out to San Marcos...

I just fell asleep. Got some rest. When the girls are not here, I sleep like crap mostly, so I needed it. My bud that was calling me Friday night called me again and woke me up. He wanted to go hunting and invited me. We went to some property that his dad owned in the Hill Country about an hour away. Since his dad passed away, it is his now. We used to go there all the time when we were in high school and college. Drive out, make a fire, barbeque something and drink beer all damn night. Little cabin is nice too. Going out brought back a lot of memories. The area is just like where I currently live, but it is about 20 acres. I live on an acre. I took the wife and Miguel there when he was about 2. That was the last time I had been there.

We talked about our wives a bit. About how much we have changed since our crap started. How we are better off. We have both found ourselves again. We both told each other that we are doing good, we just wish we could stop thinking about the wives.

He is the one that kept his kids while he and his wife are separated. Of course, we all used to hang out together.

Talked all night, drank all night, barbequed as usual. Before we barbequed, we drove into this little town called Sisterdale and hung out at a bar and watched my Longhorns go down in flames. At least it was to Texas Tech, but it still sucked. Damn good game.

Afterwards, we hunted for about an hour and that was it. No deer out, but it was good to be out doing the guy thing. We barbequed some chicken and shrimp and then went to sleep.

Something I stopped doing years ago. Things that made a difference in the relationship with the wife, I think. I stopped doing things for myself. Guy stuff. That kind of stuff matters, I discovered. I NEVER went out with the guys. Will be doing more of it from now on. I know OM is the outdoor kind of guy. Not doing it for any other reason than for myself, though.

Had some texts between B and I last night. Never came up as to what I was doing. This morning she called me and we talked a little bit. She was surprised that I was out hunting, too.

Anyway, we get back and I go to the grocery store in preparation for the coming week with my kiddo's.

I can't wait. I should make the wife bring them to me. I always pick them up or leave them off. Will figure that one out later.