AMEN!! God is ever so constant. He is always faithful.
So true that it usually us humans when not feeling that connected.
Chiki... my thread title is probably more an expression of a feeling than a statement of blame pointed at God.
I am certain he is out there... and perhaps right where I left him... as you put it in another part of your post. I am simply stating that it often feels like God and I are at a distance for whatever reason.
RMG also comments that we have a god-shaped gap in our lives that we often try to fill with drugs, booze, sex, whatever. Ya... I am familiar with the analogy. And I have most certainly tried to fill the gap with drugs, booze and a myriad of other things. They dont work. If they did, I would still be using them.
I don't imagine that it is uncommon to feel at a distance from God. A large portion of the population dont believe in God. Many who do believe, appear to be living self-reliant lives in spite of believing.
Many of us face calamity or pain and find ourselves having turned to substances and behaviours rather than God. Christians included. If this were not true, why would there be so many obese Christians? Or affairs in churches? Or Christian shop-aholics, web-aholics, church-aholics, control-aholics, debt-aholics and codependents just to name a few.
My point is that it is not at all uncommon to feel at a distance from God. Maybe this is why we are encouraged to "seek". As tangible as we wish God to be, and as much as we refer to having a "relationship" with God, I think if we were to really be honest, we would have to agree that God still remains fairly vague and invisible. Certainly in contrast to the tangible world of objects and people. If this were not so, why would we need faith?
Perhaps this is why the commandments tells us not to have idols or any god before God. Why would it be a commandment if it were not a frequent temptaion? To me, modern gods and idols can be posessions, celebrities, internet, personal image, church cultre ... just to name a few.
Where is God when people (including Christians) are putting these things ahead of God? Probably the same place he is when I ask where is God when it hurts. He is wherever he is. Out there but we often feel at a distance frequently to many of us.
Anyway... this is part of my journey. I am sure there is value in it. I will say this, I do feel God's involvement when I get an eye-opening experience in my recovery. I also feel his involvement and closeness when the unexplained happens. Like a friend of mine who had been on my mind contacting me at exactly the time I was thinking about him. Yet I have not seen him in a year or more and we have little occasion to interact. Or when I surrender a part of my life that I am finding unmanageable and then find it looked after and cared for.
Those are my God moments in my life as it is today.
So anyway... these are my meandering thoughts along life's pathway. Hey! I just realized it is Sunday morning. Maybe this is my church experience for the week?
