Well, went to bed last night. Got up cuz I couldn't sleep. H got up, offered him a sleeping pill so he came to my room. I ended up checking his back (acne) and then rubbing it. He leaned on me a while and we just sat there. The pill started to kick in and he looked like he was going to fall over so I offered to help him back to his room. I stood at the door for a minute and then he said you can come in. I was surprised. I did go in and we ended up having sex. At first he said, I don't, I don't, then I just want to feel you and I don't know what it means. After, I got the same, I don't feel right, I feel like I'm being unfair to me and you speech that I am just so tired of. Then via text, apologizing several times for hurting me. Well you know what, I'm tired of him hurting me too. I just don't know how much more of this I can do.

So today I'm watching the game? Anyone else? I know MT will be.

If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.