Fear eroded my relationship and marriage. I was too afraid to say what was really inside, to be honest about my feelings and turmoil. I was so afraid of being rejected that I held in it and went along. My marriage and family became more important than who I was.. or rather I became solely who I was based on my marriage and family.
The guy wants to try again...
Beautiful.
He wants your beauty, passion and Kalni'ess...
He's gotta work for it.
Everyone can talk til their jaws fall off but if you're not in it to love and become one again with this guy, then you're setting yourself up for failure.
Now I'm saying this all wrong.. I'm not telling you what to do, just my impressions.
Let's work backwards:
You are a family. Before you have children, you're secure in your marriage. Before a marriage, you have a wedding. A wedding takes a long time to plan. You don't plan a wedding til you're engaged. You don't get engaged until you love trust and feel a lifetime commitment to someone. Before you get engaged you're a couple. You don't become a couple unless there's something consistently dynamic and wonderful about being around each other. You don't date unless you're interested. You're not interested unless something little, a smile, twinkle, wink or action, catches your eye.
Ya see.. there's lots of steps to go through. It takes time. It doesn't happen overnight.
The one thing it does take is to risk being vulnerable with someone who hurt you big time because of..
Something there.. Something more Something special about him that sparks your interest.
