Surrendering to hope

[AliSuddenly]

Gosh, I dont know, except.. your H is F-IN NUTS !!!!!

Seriously, sorry. He texts you to say we will spend christmas together and then says, but it doesnt cahnge that its over and I am leaving you?

Star wise,
Yesterday - Neptune turned around forwards, which means its now direct today after going backwards since late May. For me, last year, when Neptune turned around in late May, that was when my ex withdrew from me, shut down and started falling for that woman at work by early June. I didnt have a clue what was goiing on all summer, it was confusing. He was obviously withdrawn and disinterested, but then he would tell me I wa the most beautiful woman in teh room, that kidn of thing. I didnt think he would leave me, but he started talking about it in August. Eventially, I got my answer - he came home 2nd November 2007 and said it wsa over for good - that was the day that Neptune turned forwards. Yep, a year ago today.

Things became confused again this year, but Neptune is again forwards since yesterday. neptune forwards is truth time, blinkers off, reality, end of illusions and dillusions. It makes me think that right now, you should accept this news as how he HAS been feeling this summer. He has finally told you what he has found it hard to say. As Neptune has gone direct, the truth has come out, as it did for me a year ago. I know its hard, but you know where you stand now. You need to let him do this before you have any hope of reconciliation, even if that was possible.

That doesnt mean that things might change again. I left my partern of 4 1/2 years and didnt see him much, but 1 1/2 yeras later I was still in love with him deep down and wanted him back, but it was too late by then. So, you never know right.

things are in a huge state of flux as you know - its that push pull thing with Saturn (commitment, marriage) and Uranus (freedom, the new, independence, D). So, maybe this is hitting your H squarely in some way in his chart (check astro.com - put his details in and see).

Theres that big Uranus-Saturn opposition tomorow, but its exact today really.

Then there is the big Venus conjunct Pluto on 12th November, right before the full moon in Taurus that night. For me, last Venus conjucnt pluto in the skies was 26th January - the day my ex came here and too his stuff and moved out official. So that was a big day for me and maybe the 12th will be too and there has been alot written about it.

Lastly, Uranus turns direct on 27th November and thats linked to a bunch of other stuff that day too, which could mean that things look differnet by the end of November.

I dont want to give yu any hope ITH as this is such a difficult sitch. I think your H has got some kind of screw loose, no offence, especially when you say he sent yuo a message "the 2nd was some joke about me not crying." Maybe he has intimacy issues, or loathes woman deep down, or himself, but you have to stop defending him ! Its not helping you! You dont seem to see what we are all seeing, he seems to have a bit of a sadistic streak.. if you face up to that (as his problem) you may stop feeling so bad about this being yuor fault.

Lastly - dont beat yuorslef up for what you did or said last night, it would have made no difference. These sitches have been rumbling for months and months, as I have seen in the skies, your actions would have been inconsequential to the decisions he tool. And it doesnt matter that you cried, it would have been wierd and unnatural if you didnt.

Dont feel as though you have done this and you have ruined everything, you didnt, he did.

Defo take some days off work, I was going to suggest that. Do whatever you need to do to feel a bit better in yourslef from this place of pain you are in. Dont worry about it bneing right or wrong, do what you have to do - switch off your laptop, or bombard him with messages, either way, just do what you want hey?

Thinking of you, I am not good today either, this is hard on us all.
Al xx