New Me - Will WAW ever notice?

[Kakatal]

Woke up 6 am today. Started moving all items for garage sale into the garage. W arrives at 7. Left to get change for her, drop D9's soccer outfit at her house. Sat around for 2 hrs with w - not much really to talk about. Found it hard to initiate a conversation about anything when I am trying avoid anything about the R. Lots of quiet silence. She probably made about $100 - I am just glad most of the stuff is now out of the house. Packed up at 9:30. W kisses kids bye & I tell her we are going to a church festival tonight at 5 if she would like to join us - it's free. She says she will call us later & probably will come along.

Went to free airshow at local airport with S4, D2 & friends. F14 & F16 jet engines were too loud for kids but they had fun looking at the other planes. Came back to house & hung out for while kids played. Talked with a friend about w, situation, his M, etc.

W calls to see how things are going. Tell her kids had fun but too noisy. W says her cousin told her same thing. Kids were given earplugs so they weren't so scared of the noise. W complains about her toenail causing her pain. Says when she paints them one nail starts hurting. Tell her story of my oldest brother who had to have his toenail removed surgically & it grew back. She says she needs to go to doctor next week.

She was going to end the call when I asked her if she still wanted to go with us tonight. I normally never bring something up that w has said she would get back to me on but i thought I would try just to see what the response would be. I know it is pursuit but really just wanted to hear her excuse.

W says that she is in pain from her neck, toe & back. Very tired since she didn't get to sleep until 1 am. I ask if the dogs kept her up. She says no, just that she had to take more aspirin last night since has a lot on her mind & it would not stop racing. I ask her what is wrong. She replies just being a worry wort. Told her I know she has a lot of things going on that are probably troubling her. If she wants to talk I am here to listen. She says thanks & that she will call kids later.

Ironic that I am so much more at peace in my head & sleep very soundly now where w is having difficulties. When w dropped the bomb, it was the other way around. But catch is instead of deriving any pleasure in my w's plight I am being empathetic toward her.