K VERY GOOD JOB!!!!! Do u think H was jelouse last night?
Me-39 STBXW-42 together 20yrs M-17 Kids-2 D-18 S-16 Bomb-96 Bomb-2005 bomb- 3/2008 for a year Separated 5/08 Filing in July Today.... Slowly learning a new life!
I don't know. I was actually not on the computer at the time, I was reading the mail. H was suppossed to work late last night so someone could take kids trick or treating but then that didn't happen, don't know why, don't really care. I asked why he was home on time and he said he didnt' have to stay. Whatever. He is just very moody right now and I asked a question I shouldn't have because that is invading whatever space is in his head, but he can and does ask me anything about everything and I'm supposed to answer with a smile I guess. I dont' care, I have nothing to hide so I tell him what I"m doing, where I"m going and whatnot. If he doesn't want to tell me, his problem. I don't usually ask anymore and that seems to get me more information as it is. He will tell me when he wants to, I jsut have to keep my big mouth shut, but this was wierd. We got an email quote for car insurance the other day and then it came in the snail mail yesterday. With all of our info, and it was a "follow up" to a conversation according to the agent. I haven't talked to anyone cuz I like my insurance company. Been with them for years. So I asked H if he had done it and that is when it started. He says no, whatever. Someone talked to this guy or I'm losing my mind.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
You would think the old people got their Social Security checks already. It was packed. I hate it when it is that way, so I got in and got out. I'm sure I forgot something, I'll probablyl remember tomorrow.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
Well, went to bed last night. Got up cuz I couldn't sleep. H got up, offered him a sleeping pill so he came to my room. I ended up checking his back (acne) and then rubbing it. He leaned on me a while and we just sat there. The pill started to kick in and he looked like he was going to fall over so I offered to help him back to his room. I stood at the door for a minute and then he said you can come in. I was surprised. I did go in and we ended up having sex. At first he said, I don't, I don't, then I just want to feel you and I don't know what it means. After, I got the same, I don't feel right, I feel like I'm being unfair to me and you speech that I am just so tired of. Then via text, apologizing several times for hurting me. Well you know what, I'm tired of him hurting me too. I just don't know how much more of this I can do.
So today I'm watching the game? Anyone else? I know MT will be.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
K have u sit down and just talked to him and ask him what it is he want, has he explained what he is saying before ML?
Me-39 STBXW-42 together 20yrs M-17 Kids-2 D-18 S-16 Bomb-96 Bomb-2005 bomb- 3/2008 for a year Separated 5/08 Filing in July Today.... Slowly learning a new life!
No I haven't sat down and asked him. And I don't intend to. I know why he said what he did before and after. He is f****ed up in the head. That is the bottom line. He will figure it out one way or the other or not. Just having a rough morning.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
K understood, the crazyness gets old i know. Thats kinda like me i would just rather not talk to her, when she is here shes not. Its obvious she doesnt want to be here when she is here. Always looking at her phone, looking at the time. I work tomorrow, tues i have to meet her to look at daughters pics, but i will not go home afterwards, i have C at 6 so i wont see her. She has made it obvious that she doesnt want to be around or talk to me. Sje hasnt said it but her actions speak it all. Sorry u kinda had a bad day.
So what are we expecting tues with the stars?
Me-39 STBXW-42 together 20yrs M-17 Kids-2 D-18 S-16 Bomb-96 Bomb-2005 bomb- 3/2008 for a year Separated 5/08 Filing in July Today.... Slowly learning a new life!
