Thanks for reading up on my thread.. I dont think I have ready your thread...I will look tonight.
I am sorry your feeling sick abouth these situations. I can relate. It is so stressful dealing with it all and wanting our old life back.
I spent yesterday with 2 couple friends from high school, as one was moving into a brand new house. Being around them, I got to see the interactions of the hubbys with their children and wives.
It saddened me because I am wanting and wanting my hubby back, yet, he is not into family like they were. He would rather party.
He spent yesterday with our children and slept all day due to the fact of partying the night before.
Maybe there is someone better out there for me and my kids.
Native and Puppy....
I really am trying to let God take control....
I continue to appreciate your advice.. Will continue to try and follow.
I do have to go to work soon... will read and post more later.
Yes , changed my name as D18 was showing interest in what I was doing and I have said things in my posts that I would rather she not know. My last name would be easy to find.
I know how you feel , this wanting and wanting. I am in terrible way today. I have to let go. I have rung C and left messages but no one has returned calls. I need help to let go.
Its been quite awhile since I have logged on ... I took a break from these boards as I tried to sort out my life.
I have to say I am in a much better place than I was 2 weeks ago. I have let go, moved on and given up the hopes of my marriage surviving this affair.
Actually, I dont want it to survive anymore. I've realized that I want more from life than what my husband can offer. As I have distanced myself I am finding myself happier and having more fun than I have had in years!
It is funny...he is extremely interested in what I am doing and who with...
He even said in a text he thinks about all of us everyday... lol....those kind of comments used to give me hope and I would hold onto his every word.
Now... I dont really care, nor do I believe him. I am done!
I've gone out dancing a few times. Had a blast and danced the night away. Bought two new outfits..and got tons of attention!
I know that someday I will meet someone that will be loyal and faithful to me.
I dont regret the time I spent trying to save my marriage. I can hold my head high and let my children know I tried with all my heart.. for them.
I still get sad, but more for the situation and what lies ahead. I am not looking foreward to the actual divorce paperwork..attorneys and splitting up the house...ugh!
Thank you to everyone that listened to me cry and gave me advice. You are definately a great group of people.
I will check back every now and then and see how everyone is doing!
Prepare yourself for more contact from your H. You are truely displaying your choice to move forward in the direction you choose and he WILL respond to it.
be careful San. If you let him back in too easily or too soon, you will be right back here again. What action is he will to take to ensure this will not happen again? Let him come up with some, don't fo his work for him.
Me 54 DS19 and DS17 Married 06/1989 Divorced 01/2011
be careful San. If you let him back in too easily or too soon, you will be right back here again. What action is he will to take to ensure this will not happen again? Let him come up with some, don't fo his work for him.
