Overall, the conversation had really good vibes. It kind of blows my mind how much we have to talk about, especially when we're talking about music... even how we are working on the same pieces (??). It felt very easy, free flowing, friendly, and connected.
The "we" and the "girl you don't know" parts made me nervous. It is also confusing for me to hear about him having so much fun in his new life in New York. When we were still together, it seemed like he barely had time to brush his teeth, and now he has time to rehearse and learn things just for fun, and has all these new friends to go to parties with?? I am jealous of the fun he is having and also confused, when does he have time to do this stuff? Unless he barely ever has fun, but when we talk every few weeks, he only tells me about the fun stuff?? Was I so much of an energetic burden on his life, that he couldn't have fun when I was around in his life? Or did he have fun before and I just didn't notice because none of it threatened me?
so I guess I can call him again when I have time, whatever that means. Next weekend maybe? I felt like maybe I put a little pressure on him at the end but... I wanted to make sure it was OK to call him relatively soon, instead of getting off the phone and waiting until the deadline had passed (and also the potential of this topic for discussion), or calling him in a few days when we normally only talk once every few weeks. I mean, the whole rapid-response-to-my-email-thing happened only last week.
So, that's the report! Sorry this is so friggin long!! thank you to anyone who actually read all of this!
