I seriously don't know what I'm going to do next. I know H is leaving around 5 AM for his biz trip tomorrow, and I have never been so depressed in my life. He kept saying that if I weren't as sweet as I am, he would have walked out long ago. I have been nothing but loving, and I just seriously don't understand being treated this way...
I tried to understand why he felt so unhappy around me, and this led nowhere. His actions contradict his words. The picture and the DB book told me that he wanted me around again, as did his phone calls and texts.
Then he said that I need to let him go and if he returns he's all mine, but that he won't return. He'll think about going to counseling with me. He is so guilt-ridden that he can't handle it. I made the huge mistake of saying that he was having a midlife crisis and I was sick of it. He then went on to dispute this, and how he didn't want younger women or a fast car...I just tried to extricate myself from the situation while he told me that maybe I was having the midlife crisis...
I don't know what to do...to think a few hours ago I thought things were going at least OK. I don't get it, why he would want to spend nights with me, but not want anything more. I am completely devastated...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
