thanks for your positive thoughts. Lan, I am glad you are because I am struggling to. Last night I went to bed thinking I am ready to do this and this morning I got up crying again. I think I may be getting depressed a little bit. I remind me of how I was post separation days... stbxH came to pick up the kids. We didnt talk or anything. I had the chance to tell him what I was thinking of telling him but didnt. He asked me why my eyes were swollen and I blamed my lenses for it. I am not sure he believed me but...
So, I am home, a close friend of mine came over for "coffee" and of course she was surprised to see me in this shape. She cant understand "what else am I waiting for?". Well, frankly, I dont either...
So, I 've been eating all sorts of junk food today, smoking like a chimney (is this correct?) and thinking. Ohh, and I watched Sex and the City and thought it was a melodramatic movie (my mood was that bad-a bit better now). I am going to watch Shrek I, II, III now...
