God grant me the patience and the strength...8

[theotherhalf]

And,
Yea me too!! Yes I did.

WCW,
My L said he would have loved to taken this all the way. He feels all it was was a young PA making a name for himself. But the risk of going to prison was too great. If I didn't have my girls I may have pushed it as well. It wasn't right, but is what it is. And trust me there is NO danger of me getting into more trouble. Those two are not worth any of this.
I am okay WCW, really I am. Alot of stuff going on in my head. Working through alot of emotions. And yea, I am spinning some, why wouldn't I be? But I am okay. I really don't want to do the meds. I did last year and they did help, but I don't want to back up I want to move forward.

NC,
No not alot of the time. H never was taught how to respect a woman. His F was terrible to his M. No exuse, just was. I like working with my H because this is my farm too. I WANT to be a part of it. I want to learn. I want to share the load. And most times we work together just fine.
No H still does not "love" me the way I need. That is why I don't initiate anymore. Not going to set myself up for the hurt anymore. I trully believe he has nothing in him right now. He is a shell of a man that I used to know. With patience, understanding, and God's will, someday maybe that will change.
No I eat because I REALLY LOVE food. That and because I get bored.

Thanks all,
TOH