So... I know you guys will tell me not to have looked but it is fairly clear from FB that my h is moving with that girl - whether as friends or something else I don't know. I am not going to assume. I am fairly gutted but I have to say not devastated which is kind of showing me that maybe I am moving on?? I am not sure that I can keep this thing up much longer as I am feeling the need to move forward with my life now too. Coming back to this house after the hols was not nice; it doesn’t feel like home anymore just a big old empty house. He is now making his 'home' elsewhere and clearly has no intention of coming home and truth be told is not pining away missing me and is actually enjoying life, or thinking he is enjoying life, by the sound of it.
Maybe I am being too pragmatic but the phrase 'flogging a dead horse' comes to mind. I am not even sure now that I want him back as how could I ever trust that he would not just 'give up' so easily again. Could I really be in a relationship where I walked on eggshells thinking that things I may do would mean he may walk out again. I thought I would just be able to forgive him, I am not angry with him and I do not blame him but I do now feel betrayed. Probably a lot of assuming and feelings going on there. Perhaps not very DBing?!
There has been no reply to my email although he did reply to my text re the cat just before I flew out. It said to tell her off (for drinking from the toilet) and how disgusting was that and was I going on holiday today. I replied I was and got nothing, no 'have a great time' or anything.
I am going to have to do some thinking about what I want because for the first time ever it is not 'I just want my husband to come home'.
