Single parenting and dating again.....

[~Sol]

Hey Wii,

I like that nickname of your nickname btw! Don't know why I didn't think of it before ~ maybe I'm too serious and don't get out and play enough? LOL

Man, you are absolutely riiiiight! This R is way undefined! I let her kinda just string me along, and I am frustrated when I try to see it as something more than what it is (no pun here - lol) Wow, after reading what you said - all me and her are are just texting friends!!! THAT hit me like a ton of bricks! I'm hitting the brakes on this one, and just letting it go. She can text, IM, or even call if she wants - I'll be just one more out of state Joe that she has in her phone buddies lists. (ugh) But still, it's fun when you come to think about it.

Just to recap, I hope you can tell me what my gut is telling me from the get-go.
1. She's been divorced 3 times. Yep, 3.
2. 2 kids from 1st marriage, 1 kid with ADHD from second.
3. 3rd guy from 3rd marriage was best friend type guy, gave her an std. (she told me before I visited her, we didn't take it far thank goodness!)
4. She's self-employed and has a chaotic daily schedule. So doesn't fit with me even if she lived in same city.
5. She's not in same city, but 8 hours drive away.

So yeah, this is a complication I don't need! The std kinda opened up my eyes to the reality of dating. Even if I find the right person - and we have a long R together, I would have to take the risk to catch whatever she has just for a chance at real love. And I would hate if it didn't work out, but dating is risk altogether anyway. Just getting back into dating itself is a complicated and stressful thing, but I'm a lot wiser now, accept that I am not "mr perfect" - and I'm not going to find "ms perfect" either because there is no such thing. There is a "ms right" out there, and will be imperfect just like me.

So anyway, time to get my head out of the clouds eh? I don't like getting a cold, that's why I'm up at 3-something in the morning typing this! LOL.