Did not have good day today for some reason my whole marriage flashed in front of me and I just couldnt control myself and cried for hours. even though it seems my W is coming around maybe realizing what she is doing it still hurts that she is not coming home. I guess I am afraid she is just telling me she is not talking to other women but in fact might still be,just to kep me around. I do not want to be the option I want to be the priority. I am beginning to reralize that my life has to move with or without her,its just so hard and every time I see her I melt. Lately she looks me in the eyes alot and I see that she still loves me. I asked her not to do that since she knows what it does to me. Now it seems she does it on purpose. I dont understand why. Could she have a change of heart and wants to come home but is afraid to admit she did wrong. I am sooo confused,need help
