My worst fears realised . H was out with a woman last night and same one tonight. He told me. I cannot put in words the pain. Hr said she is like him, cheating spouse and they share that in common but nothing else.
H said that she ws ugly, flat chested, half drunk, smoker and not someone I should be worried about and you know what i said. I said please ring me when you leave her place tonight. I was in shock.
I came in the house and broke down. Both D were crying and S 20 stormed out of the house to go see H. I tried to stop him , he did not take his phone. He has been gone a long time.
I have since text H to say that i was not sure where my head was at, but i did not want a call from him tonight. I am better than that. That I was not angry. I would not be going to wedding. Bye
I dont know how to get through the next 24 hours. Kids canceled all there plans to stay home with me. S has not yet returned.
I will no longer contact him, I will not snoop. I tried to fix my M. I was sorry, I did everything asked of me. I sold cars, phone s, I told the truth, I stopped contact. I can do nothing more.
I need to know that this pain will stop. I am typing this, to avoid being upset still in front of kids. BF and mum are supporting.
