Sit down and breathe thats all you need to worry about at the moment ok. What I'm gonna tell you, you may not want to hear, but Here it goes. First of all welcome to mlc. This sucks!! I know. IMHO 95% of true mlc'ers have a pa. Maybe more. Sorry dude. Please remember you will NEVER be given more than you can handle, NEVER. NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!!
We all have a choice as to what we share on the board ok. Everyone's choice is different. Some share all some don't. I know EXACTLY how you feel ok. I think you catch my drift.
First of all DO ABSOLUTELY NOTHING right now. Your mind is racing, your heart is breaking. This is consuming you, and it will for a time.It's normal Jeff. WE will get through this, We, and I don't just mean me and you. I'm a believer Jeff and thats all that matters. Many people have felt what your feeling right now.(me included) If you won the lottery tonight, you will still be thinking about this crap. IT IS NOT gonna go away soon. I'm so sorry.
You need to find strength like never before, don't worry, I'm sending you every thing I got and so is the BIG MAN UPSTAIRS. Others on the board will come.
You need to go somewhere peaceful. Silence your mind, Close your eyes. Jeff: question: Can you accept this? Can you forgive and forget? THINK IT THROUGH. Be honest with your self. YOU are the only one that knows. I will never judge you friend.
You feel out of control. You control Jeff, thats all that matters. Either path you take is ok. How much are you willing to give right now? Expect nothing in return for you won't get it at the moment. "God's love" my friend, that is what your being taught. If you say enough is enough you are released JEFF. She broke the vow, not you. You can move on. Although God forgives everyone if they ask for it. Does JEFF?
Take your time, If I had it to do all over again. I would be very careful who I shared this with. Her parents WILL support her, nothing personal. They have to. Don't go to them. Go to this board. You can confront her, don't get me wrong. Be prepared though, if you draw a line, there is no going back. It's time to find Jeff! Dig deep! I'm behind you 100%.
What ever you decide, I'm with you. YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS. Take your time, This is YOUR choice!!
It can go either way, nothing is guaranteed. You must do or do not there is no trying here bud. You have to let go of her.
Think it through, YOU and only You. if you need anything I will be here. Take your time ok. You can ask me anything... but its your choice. Trust yourself friend. I will be praying and you will be ok. ACT AS IF, ACT AS IF, ACT AS IF. Find the real Jeff. Someone thinks your a lot stronger than you do right now. BELIEVE IT!!!
I am with you, and so are a whole lot of others. Sorry for not getting back sooner. I am feeling your pain.
