It all must feel very frightening, Being Me. I guess life really is adjusting to what comes our way and very rarely does what we know life as now remain forever. Somebody once said that when we die our in boxes will never be empty! We keep thinking that when this or that is taken care of then life will be OK but life just keeps throwing us more curves. I guess those curves are really a big part of what makes up our lives and makes us unique! You'll handle this curve like you've handled the rest of your life, with courage and spirit! Keep on journaling whenever you need to, we're here for ya.