Even though I get all sappy and emotional and vent on here, I feel I am doing well under the circumstances.
My days are up and down..just depends. Today was not so good. Simmple holidays like Holloween are hard. We have a 3 y/o son..this was his first major trick or treat, where he went house to house and had fun...
I was smiling and had to hold back tears at the same time. It just did not feel right to not have my other half experiencing this day with me.
I just hate this, its not what I chose for my life. I am a dominant in control person and this is an area that I have lost control over...completely. ... and I can seem to get the emotions under control.
