I really am so impressed by your attitude and how much you have learned in such a short time.
The key to getting through all of this is to first of all detach, which you are getting the hang of. This will help you to get through the spew sessions.
Breathe!!!
So many times, during my Husband's MLC, the only way to get through one of his "episodes" was to breathe through it. It helped me to get my focus back and to keep my big mouth shut!
Prayer!!
A very wise poster, once told me about the Refiner's Fire. This was a HUGE turning point for me, I learned how to be still and to wait on God.
As you already know, the only person you can change is yourself. It is something that has to be real, you can't fake it. Having occasional backslides doesn't mean you have regressed, it just means you are human.
As long as we keep moving forwards and we learn from our mistakes, we are making progress.
There are no guarantees with DB-ing, as far as saving every single Marriage. But you will save yourself, and you will become an absolutely amazing person having gone through this horrendous trial.
Hang in there, don't lose your faith. It's Ok to take a time out now and again when things get to be too much.
Sending HUGE hugs
((((hugs)))
BND
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
