Hope4us struggle, part 9 or 10 or whatever

[Hope4us]

Thanks guys. I hope you're right. When I came out of the cavern this afternoon I had a text message from her. It said something about this job she's going to do filling in for another Admin while she has surgery. But the way it was worded was like she was having a conversation with someone else and sent this text in the middle of THAT conversation to me by mistake. So I sent her a reply and she replied "What"? Now I understand that she sent the text at 8:00 am and I didn't come out of the ground until after 2:00 pm, but I found that weird. So I said, "I was replying to your last text about the temp assignment but maybe that text was intended for someone else and you sent it to me by mistake" and it took her a good 10 minutes to reply. She said "Oh, I'd forgotten what I texted" and then replied to my comment. So I called her office and talked for a bit. I did include that itjust seemed like that text was meant for someone else and she replied "no, I wasn't texting anyone else". But she was kind of cold after that. I know I shouldn't, but I'll be checking the cell phone website in the morning and seeing if she was texting someone else. I mean, why would she have a reason to lie about something like that? I know she's not so stupid to text OM. There would be no reason to do that when she's at work and could IM or email him without me knowing. I don't know. It's just so wierd the way she was and her responses. Probably too much thinking on my part, but that's what this kind of crap does to ya.

On my way home she called and said the Halloween costume we'd ordered for S20 was delivered home instead of to S20's school so she was going to drive it to him for the party tomorrow. She's still gone right now and probably won't be home for a while unless S20 drives to meet her part way like he told me he was going to do.

So I don't know. I did ask her in our conversation if anything was bothering her. That last week and weekend things were great and after she went back to work she just seemed distant to me. And she replied that nothing was wrong.

I don't believe that though. There might not be anything wrong, but something's definitely different with her. Maybe it's like you guys have suggested. She's triggering because either I went on this work trip to the Refinery OM works at or because of how much I traveled prior to her affair. Or when she went back to work she triggered. Or her feelings scared her and she's pulling back some because that would make everything she's done a waste and she's not ready to face up to that yet.

We'll see. Tomorrow is the bed shopping trip where we'll be together most of the day. So it'll be a good gauge on where we are.

Talk to ya'all later...golly, I sound like H4H?!?!?!